To my dear Janette Belle 2

I cannot cope with the fact that you are not here with me. My soul is lost and searching for your breast to rest on. I see illusions of you around every street corner and inside every grocery store. I cannot go a night without spending time with you in my dreams. We sing, dance, enjoy each other, and love. You are the mere reality of my fantasy. Atleast that's how it used to be; but now that you are gone I'm no longer living, just floating by each day, waiting for the day I see you again. That will be a glorious day, life will be livable and love will be an involuntary and natural act. Until then I will clench your pillow to my chest and remember how you felt against my body.

Forever your honarable King

To my dear Janette Belle

As I have told you before, these times are hard for me. I struggle everyday to function without hearing the soft sound of every breath you take or feel your fingers locked with mine. Even though I hurt during the day, it hits me the most when the sun rests. I begin to remember the nights we used to spend together and reminisce. It is kind of wierd though, because my body has become numb without you. My arms have molded to the shape that your body makes when I hold you; and I dont know what to do now that you aren't here. It is a struggle for me to stand up straight and sit down right. I toss and turn at night because I have become accustomed to you being my teddy bear and my night light. You take away all the bad dreams and the monsters leave us alone because they are so taken by your beauty. It kind of makes me feel proud to be lying next to someone so beautiful, but you humble me and I love you for that. Right now I am missing those times where I get to kiss you good night and then immediately begin to dream about you.

Forever your honorable King